Jesselyn's

2009-11-11T07:12:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONGDE!

Today is yongde birthday, went to KTV for celebration. The cake is delicious, haha. And is a big cake. My birthday i want big cake also lei, haha. Anyway, I wont post as often already as I seldom touch my computer now. But will update again . Bye ! :D

2009-10-27T23:08:00.000-07:00

No money very jialat lor, hoh? :( Found job le, but waiting for call. hais.

2009-10-21T20:29:00.000-07:00

Jeanna blow blow!

Make wishes oh.

Happy Birthday Jeanna :)

Jeanna & shi min

Jeanna & me

Me & Jeanna

Qi Yang, very cute hoh? lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEANNA! I love you.

Yesterday went to iluma for movie & back to Redhill aftermath for Jeanna cake celebration. Think she wasn't feeling very happy, as we didnt went to play & enjoy ourselves. Sorry Jeanna. Due to shortage of money & others was under by restriction of time, we are unable to make a meaningful celebration for you, really so sorry oks.

2009-10-14T22:04:00.000-07:00

I just don't comprehen why life is so unfair? Knowingly I do more than her, but it results differently. Life is meant to be unfair to make this world fair, this sounds true anot? sighs. why why, tell me why? Or am I just too idealistic? I really feel so.... I don't know how to describe this feeling. Anyway, went to do eyebrown threading at commonwealth yesterday. Feel more neat after threading, haha. I receive a call from Simin and she says meeting at redhill, so i went there aftermath. Stupid liang & Qi Xian scare me to death, lol. I was really being scared by them ok, not play play de hoh, haha. I, Simin, Zi liang & Qi Xian, all of us went to eat & slack aftermath. Slack till around 7 plus, I went off to bugis to meet up with my dearest mum :) She bought me some facial products, so happy! haha! Thanks Mummy :D & home sweet home around 10 plus.

知道分手后，你不难过，
你比从前快乐，那祝福的话，
叫我如何能够说得出口。

2009-10-13T09:13:00.000-07:00

Guess which one is me? hahahahas. shag ahs. Went to Redhill today & slack. So happy to see Marcus & Yong De , haha! Not forgetting Simin, liang & yang too. Feel so elated whenevr i hang with them :)

FOOLISHNESS

2009-10-11T21:09:00.000-07:00

'N' level finally is over, oh my gosh, so happy! ;) Anyway, this girl above is not me okay. She ask me to post her picture at my blog, lol. && do you guys saw the skin therapy oil that i post above? I was under a hesitation whether to purchase anot. Because I believe that oil is unhealthy to skin & i'm worry that I apply on it, it will worsen my complexion. Will it? I also don't know, this is part of my interpretion only, lol. Additionally, I was not in a very good mood too, as something bad has happen to my friends. Fortunately, hope everything will be fine for them! :) Anyway, I bet readers wondering why didn't I post my own pictures right? I tell you right now. This is because my hair sucks to the core! & I mean real sucks, and this explains why I didn't take any pictures during this length of time. I'm going to do something about my hair, & i promise once I finish dealing with my hair, I will upload pictures okay! :D

2009-10-03T03:17:00.000-07:00

No pictures today, haha. As i'm busying mugging for my 'N' level examinations next monday. I know my blog is kinda dead, but will revive this dead blog soon okays. Readers, must be patient oh, haha!

I miss someone abruptly, this is so sudden, or can i say it is all the while? hai. Till now, i'm still pondering over some things.

REALITY

2009-09-26T20:18:00.001-07:00

As you guys realise that 'N' level is 8 days away, i've been mugging on my studies & especially brushing up mathematics. My foundation for math is really horrible, but hopefully I'll pass. Ok, let's elaborate about some other stuffs. Yesterday went to commonwealth and study, headed to Redhill aftermath.

I very sad lor, how? Don't know why still clinging to this feeling:(

2009-09-19T20:11:00.000-07:00

*Loves*

Yesterday went to watch blood ties with Jeanna, Si min, Zi liang & Kok long. It is not scary at all, yet i feel that it is counted as a show with full of violence. haha. But still it is commendable. Next show that we are plaaning to watch is Phobia 2. We saw a short advertisment yesterday, look quite nice, gonna catch it. YEAH! Anyway, i still have to mug on the rest of my subject, stress stress come again liao :(

&& Byebye, i'll update again!

I'm on the pace of forgetting already, I guess. 心疼又如何，心碎又如何？

Slowly, give me time.......

也许你没那么爱我

2009-09-11T08:18:00.000-07:00

'N' level buang already lah, DAMN SAD! I didnt have time to complete. Why I keep don't have time to complete de lei, stupid sia. how? I'm so damn afraid that i might not be able to promote to secondary 5. Really scared. HAIS. F to the U and C to the K!

2009-09-07T04:55:00.000-07:00

Today had my Chinese 'N' level paper, not very easy as expected. I did not have time to complete my compo, as I spent too much time on my letter writing, fuck! Damn shag okay, hais. It's 'N' level, not Prelim okay! Very shag, really. Chinese is the easiest subject to achieve good grade, but now, I wasted my grade away due to insufficient time, hais, hais, hais, hais! Tomorrow social studies & Chinese listening comprehension. Wish me all the best okay. Later I will dig my ears de, hahahaha! LOL. Anw, hope i have enought time for Social Studies tommorow, please! I want to get good results!

It's so excruciating when misses & memories still stays, really. I still have to get over no matter what, as he won't be back ANYMORE! I knew :)

The Misconception

2009-08-29T09:58:00.000-07:00

I am so lack of determination, i really think that i'm very weak. I seriously need to mug on my studies, i can't afford to fail my 'N' level. But many things seems to bother me so much, i'm damn fustrated lor, hais. howhow? tell me how?

Who are those people that truly cares about me? Who are those people that are true to me and not putting on invisible mask? who? Who are those people that willing to listen to my weal & woes repeatedly? Why do i still brood over things that I shouldn't and unworthy? So many thoughts & mixed feelings, hais.

wake up girl, it's really time to clear your thoughts!

2009-08-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

Hello people. it's 11.30pm already, yet im still not on my bed. Because i have to submit my testimonial by tonight. I'm cracking my brain for like 2 hours to plan how to write man, haha. I'm so tired now, but I suddenly have the urge of blogging . Hence, this is where I am now, haha. My N levels is less than two weeks time, wish me achieve of good grades alrights ;) I shall blog again, goodnights!

Trying so hard, I really tried.. Does anyone knows that I really tried my very best? Hais.

Everything will be over soon, be strong :)

2009-08-22T21:49:00.006-07:00

Some recent pictures uploaded, sorry that I didnt update so specificly. & I know I update approximately once in a few weeks? Haha, lazy lah. Ok, Went out with Carilyn Darling last week. It's been so long that we didn't go out together. So happy to meet up with her, as she was there to listen to my woes & comfort me, thanks :) loves!

Specially want to thanks all my friends for being there for me all these while :)

I can't believe for what I've heard, really. I did smell a rat earlier on, but I can't force people to hand their phone over & check it. Though I think I did force , but I still fails to see it. Since then, I ponder whether I'm the one who think too much, & i guess so. However, when I heard of something, it really hits the reality! How hurtful, how heartbroken.... This is the most saddening thing, really. I finally know what's going on, what's hiding behing me throughout that month. Perharsp I do not know everything, but this info that I've heard is more than enough! I just

really cannot believe it, maybe I still think that he is still the 'OLD' him. But the fact is I dont know where the 'OLD' him had gone. Maybe I'm too naive or can I say that I'm stupid? I thought this love was exceptional, as he shows how much love for me in the past. But how things have change so fast, really fast. Now I finally know, even a guy who loves you terribly, things will still change. Forget it, I have so much to say, but I don't intend to carry on writing anymore, I'm tired. I will get over soon :)

2009-08-12T10:34:00.001-07:00

2009-08-12T10:23:00.000-07:00

It ended so fast, just like this. Four months ago, we're still friend i guess. At that point of time, I'm still enjoying the unconditonal love from you. Though the time being together with you just three months plus, but there's really too much unforgettable memories. So much for me to reminisce, however, too much reminscing is excruciating. This feeling now is excruciating too. No matter how it goes, i'll still get over it, I promise. It's really so hard for me to believe that..... I'm so tired. I'll miss you definitely, love.

2009-07-06T09:03:00.000-07:00

Bugis shopping today, bought a top, i super love it okay, extremely gorgeous. Haha. Went there with Ah Joy, Shiyu, Xiaohui & Wanling. Aftermath, accompany Wanling to meet her friends, don't really know her friends. After hours, went back to cck & lastly headed back to home :)

Gonna see my 男朋友 tommorow, so happy. Going to give you a big big hug tommorow, loves you. muacks baby!

2009-07-05T10:41:00.000-07:00

Went to redhill today with MY jeanna, haha! Headed to Queensway aftermath, we went there to eat the nice nice curry rice, haha! & to buy stud. I love my stud lor, very nice ;) Went back to redhill again, slack a while & headed back home. Don't know why I'm in a super good mood today , Lol. Hope my happy mood will remains it like that for the rest of the day. Though I'm in a good mood, but I still miss my boy terribly. I want to hug him! :( I MISS YOU, I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU , I LOVE YOU , I MISS YOU, I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU, I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU, I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU, I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU , I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU, I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU, I LOVE YOU. DEAR, I REALLY WANT TO SEE YOU SOON, PLEASE!

2009-07-04T11:17:00.000-07:00

Just a random picture :) 'N' levels is coming, study study! Wish me all the best. Anw, i want to put on some weight , could anyone tell me how to? Don't ask me keep eating, as i keep eating too, but it doesnt help. (Cry!) Meeting my dearest sis, Jeanna, tommorow. So happy to see her.

Lastly, I MISS MY BOY. Gonna see you soon, yeah! ;)

I Love you hoh, hehes.

2009-07-01T06:11:00.000-07:00

Happy Two Months Anniversary Baby :)

Dearest Boyfriend, I miss you so much, do you know? I tell you, my feeling for you WILL NOT fade okay? I will wait for you de. You say when you come out, you will be like last time & treat me good, I was so happy to hear that. I hope it is true & make sure you will. CANNOT lie to me hoh? Though we didnt spend time together during the june holidays, but I hope that we wil NOT drift apart okay? Hope to see you next week. I will always LOVE & MISS YOU Dear.

* 010509*
FOREVER :)

2009-06-11T09:57:00.000-07:00

Today I went out with my dearest sis, Jeanna :) Went to Vivo, shop & slack. No one call us up to interupt, haha. It was a smooth day for us. No pictures, as our hair is ugly, & we didnt take any of it. Thats all :)

Garret, I miss you, I love you! FOREVER :)

2009-06-06T09:55:00.000-07:00

Yeah, finally i'm not lazy to blog today. Get my pictures upload and now, i'm here to update :) Okay, i don't intend to elaborate about my whereabouts today. & I probably will be working during these three weeks:D haha.

This feeling is excruciating

2009-06-02T03:02:00.000-07:00

Oh my, it's damn long I didn't update my blog lor, lol. Finally, I have the mood to update now, haha! Anyway, I just randomnly post some pictures that I've taken the so called 'recently' LOL. & I MISS MY BOYFRIEND EXTREMELY MUCH. I hope you will have your HL this week :) IF don't have, nevermind, I will wait for you no matter what it takes, rest assurred baby. I love you :) & hoh, don't be naughty next time le lah :P 亲爱的, yesterday was our one month anniversary :) I wonder do you remember? Darling, I want to see you soon, I miss you so.......

2009-05-13T07:01:00.000-07:00

Dearest, I LOVE YOU! *010509*

2009-04-28T05:09:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU!

Dearest sis :)

Didnt update quite long i guess? sorry. anyway, these are some overdue pictures:) Ok, I briefly say about how am i last week. I was fine but was extremely tired during lessons. I tried to force open my eyes big & so i can pay attention to what teacher has taught. I was worried as exams are starting within two days time. I'm afraid & nervous. I think i'll be getting bad results, oh my. How? I'm so regret that I didnt start my revision earlier & now i have to squeeze & chiong everything together, sighs. Advice please? Anyway, i think i will not blog as often due to packed in time.

2009-04-19T22:04:00.000-07:00

Sorry readers for the deficient of updates, LOL!! Anyway, I'm sick & it is quite serious, so I'll update when i'm fully recover && when I'm free. I'm gonna be busy as exams starts next week :D

2009-04-14T05:38:00.000-07:00

13 Apr 2009, yesterday!!

Happy Birthday Ivan!! Wishing you miles of joy in the year throughout:) You see, i'm sucha good photographer, isn't it the photo is nice? Haha. He was rather pathetice yesterday as he needs to tolerate the smell of the egg that stains in his shirt, which was thrown by Zhipeng & Garret, tsktsk. LOL. Ivan, wash your clothes already? Imao. Ok, once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAOBAI GE!

2009-04-14T05:15:00.000-07:00

11 Apr 2009, saturday!!

Went to redhill to celebrate Ziliang birthday. Happy Birthday Ziliang! May all your wishes become a reality & last long with Si Min :D & He was jialat too. He was being spray and his whole body was dirty, haha. Oh, no picture of Ziliang, too bad, sorry peeps! Shall take with him next time round :) I went off around 11 plus. Suddenly, it happen something unpleasant, it really turn me off. I don't want to mention what lah, or else alot of people will know, sighs. anw, sorry for the lack of updates too, sorry.

I get to see you! It cuts my heart that moment, :'( ! I did not know what to do, & suddenly many thoughts stuck in my mind. Why will I like that? Beats me. I'm sad, I miss you & i can't forget you, thats what all I can say. Countless of misses that stays, countless of memories that i will NEVER forget! :)

2009-04-09T21:33:00.000-07:00

Pimples is attacking me!! I detest pimples & it is Girl enemy, right? HAHA! Pimples go away, don't come again another day! :P

2009-04-07T04:20:00.000-07:00

This few days is a good weather to sleep at home, haha! Days of wear out is making me feel sleepy in the classroom, and i do not have sufficient sleep at home. I'm getting lazier & easily tired. LOL, as i've said it's probably due to the weather. Exams is two or three weeks away, yet i'm not readily prepared. How how how? :x

2009-04-05T07:20:00.000-07:00

Jeanna! Love you sis:)
Ahyang.
&& the KPO wilie. LOL!

Yesterday:
I met up with Jeanna, garret, marcus, wilie, ziyang & alfreda. We went to KTV and sing, hohohos:x It is not expensive, because it is not as high class as KBOX, LOL! We sing till 7 & headed to redhill aftermath. However, only I, Jeanna, Wilie & Ziyang went to redhil. The rest went their individual ways. Had a bad headache yesterday, maybe it is due to insufficient sleep bah.

TODAY:
SLACK DAY! Nothing to post about, usual routine :)

2009-04-02T06:12:00.000-07:00

Pictures were taken yesterday. I was at home yesterday actually. Suddenly receive a call from Alfreda, haha, this moment, I know is not something good, opps:x She ask me accompany her to look for eugene & slack slack. I did my things approximately 15 mins & I'm done. Haha, how fast i am right? Because I didn't put on makeup as I only drew my eyebrown & put on some cream, so that explains :) Around 9, we all headed home, yes. As for today, same routine.

My thoughts: I really feel like giving you up, as i think is really pointless. I tried to put you off my mind throughout the one year plus since we broke up, yet I fail to do it. Countless memories flashing back through my mind each time, heartaches seriously. But I told myself I got to face the reality as I know you won't return. I fully realise now. I'm letting go & I hope we are still friends in future. Though we won't be together anymore, but you will always stays a special place in my heart & I mean it. Sometimes in life is hard to meet a guy who you loves alot, and the guy loves you alot too. It always the opposite, isnt it? Sighs. Lastly, I miss you immensely boy.

School life :)

2009-03-31T04:56:00.000-07:00

Hello! I'm quite lazy to update for the past two days & I got nothing interesting to post about too. As usual, school, eat, slack, home, watch television & sleep. Boring right? As for weekends, I got more stuff to post about. So, catch up for my next post :) && please listen to my blog song, is super nice, i love it so much.

STUDY!!

2009-03-27T08:40:00.000-07:00

Body ache, due to intense workout, damn it! Went home after school & change, went to fareast aftermath. Wanted to buy clothes, but I went home with empty handed, haha. There's nothing new & nice, so that explains. Today is a boring day, most of the people are busy with their stuff :( So we spent our time slacking & headed home. That's all for today, nothing much to say, goodbye peeps! :)

Maybe it's fading.

2009-03-26T05:40:00.000-07:00

I don't comprehen. Yes, lots of thing mixing up my mind & i'm in a confusion state. What should i do or should i not do, I really don't know for the time being. I really got to sort out my thoughts, as it seems to bother me all the time.

I'M TIRED.

2009-03-25T03:37:00.000-07:00

I feel kinda sad. When I was on the way home on bus, countless flashbacks through my mind, it hurts my heart that moment. Life is really unfair, but what could we do? Life is meant to be unfair to make this world fair, isnt it? Sigh. But somehow I feels that we will get something we yearns for long unless we have the determination mindset on 'NEVER GIVE UP'. Agree? Honestly, this year is a bad romance year for me, hate it! LOL oks. Pardon me for my nonsense man! Just kinda bored :)

My feelings were not reciprocated, sorry :)

2009-03-24T04:07:00.001-07:00

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I'm so sleepy in the morning. I was doing so many homework in the past two days. Finally, now is a time for relieve, be glad:D Teachers is really a daylight murderer which giving us more & more homework & test nowadays, walao. However, I know is meant for our own good. The guy in the picture that i've post is a bad guy, LOL! His favourite is to disturb others, especially me, the pathetic one:P Today, he step onto my chair & don't let me have it back, wth,lol! I told you I'm gonna post. Oh fuck, he's gonna kill me for sure when he saw this post, shit! Don't come to my blog please, haha! Tommorow lesson is very relax, meaning to say we won't get any teaching. This is consider something good or bad? Oks, I must study hard now, as 'N' level is approximately 5 or 6 months away, Go man! & I WILL PROMOTE TO SECONDARY 5 FOR SURE, mark my word! ;) End of post, Goodbye!

love, Jess.

Homework day!

2009-03-22T07:00:00.000-07:00

Ok, today I stay at home & chiong my homework, lol! Alot of homework, I can't finish, die :x Eat, do homework, eat & sleep!
Stupid Liar, fucking liar! I hate! I hate! Liar! I don't think i need a long phrase to describe what kind of person you're! Your actions, your words make me effing upset, Fuck You CB!

2009-03-21T10:36:00.000-07:00

Met alot people today at redhill. It was bored there, but was entertain with humorus jokes by some of the people there, haha.
& somehow I feel that we've drifted, i wonder isit i think too much or is a reality? I hope not oks. I really can't live without a friend like you, I hope & pray that we're not drifted. School starts tommorow, effing bored, but I'm happy to see all my friends tommorow, miss you all much!

Your love, Jesselyn!

Dance the night away!

2009-03-20T01:07:00.001-07:00

St james yesterday :) The que was so long, & it is a waste of time. Fortunately, we mangae to get in around 1.15 am. Dance for only one hour and forty five minutes, as the club ends at 3am. I was so regret to catch the movie at 9.15pm, otherwise we could get in early. I regretted many things! Damn it! Oks, yesterday was not very extremely fun, but it is better than my first club at zouk. LOL!

Anger post:
You're such a big liar, a big big liar that i have ever seen. I rather you speak the truth than giving me all such stupid excuses. Fcuk!

I miss my cousin!

2009-03-18T09:06:00.000-07:00

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Today I'm so effing tired. I woke up around 8 plus in the morning? Insufficient sleep, yawn*.
Just now my cousin & I went to meet aska bro, belinda jiejie, brother smoke & salam. Isit spelled like that salam? Lol, okay. We went to marina square to have dinner & have some ice cream for dessert, woo :D && I miss my cousin, hope you can come over my house to stay often! Feeling so sad when she go home, I miss you :x

2009-03-17T09:58:00.000-07:00

Today I went to reborn my fringe at aljunied, as well as to meet my cousin. Aftermath, we headed over to my mum place, slack at there for a while. After some chat with each other, went to bugis. I bought a new phone today & Im so happy, haha. After my mum left, went to meet Belinda jiejie & aska. Haha, same lor, usual talk. Around 8 plus, went home ler, boring day, but somehow also a happy day for me, as my new phone lighten up my mood, hehs.

Anyway, I'm here sincerely here to apologise to my mum. * SORRY MUMMY* She today nag at me for 30 mins I guess, I was feeling so fustrated at that moment. I show her attitude! I was so bad ok, i really feel so guilty about it. She really dote on me so much, yet I show my stupid attitude towards her, I'm really sorry mummy & I love you :) I've no idea how to atone my guilt. So sorry.